Nothing is wrong with you whiskered i found a razor blade and i jumped for joy no lie. The temptation is strong but havent touched the blade yet . ( some one just cut my husband off the one time i dont have seat belt on why hit my head on the dash why couldt i fly out if the woindow shield ):
I’m glad that you haven’t given in. Keep fighting.
(I think about that stuff too. All the times I could die within the course of a day. “Why didn’t that fall break my neck?” “Why didn’t that car hit me?”)
One day at a time, urges don’t disappear overnight. As to what’s wrong… well, there’s something wrong with every single human being on this planet, so i’d say that’s a question than can be answered given enough time and self knowledge. Not that it’s easy but… heck, most people go unaware of their “wrongness” for most of their lives, even if it’s destroying everyone around them… being aware is a huge chunk of the battle.
I’ve never cut, but only because I’ve always preferred choking. (Which I don’t recommend by the way— it causes brain damage.) So when I saw that blade, I immediately had much more fatal intentions in mind.
But anyway, it’s awesome how long you’ve been clean. 🙂 Keep going, I believe in you!
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How’s things fish
Not good, but not as bad as before. I know that I feel like I’m sitting under a really hot lamp.
I think I’m probably coming up on another psychotic episode. I haven’t had one in what feels like forever. My family will be really disappointed.
The urge will be there. It’s still surrounding me no matter how much I try to tell myself I’m better. Keep going please. <3
I’ll try my hardest. I hope the urge won’t be there always.
Best of luck to you, my friend.
Nothing is wrong with you whiskered i found a razor blade and i jumped for joy no lie. The temptation is strong but havent touched the blade yet . ( some one just cut my husband off the one time i dont have seat belt on why hit my head on the dash why couldt i fly out if the woindow shield ):
I’m glad that you haven’t given in. Keep fighting.
(I think about that stuff too. All the times I could die within the course of a day. “Why didn’t that fall break my neck?” “Why didn’t that car hit me?”)
One day at a time, urges don’t disappear overnight. As to what’s wrong… well, there’s something wrong with every single human being on this planet, so i’d say that’s a question than can be answered given enough time and self knowledge. Not that it’s easy but… heck, most people go unaware of their “wrongness” for most of their lives, even if it’s destroying everyone around them… being aware is a huge chunk of the battle.
Wise words Mf 🙂 like you!
Not everyday i get a like you from someone, even less so from a stranger, so thank you! *blushes* (lol)
Not everyday? Then let me take the time, Mf, to tell you that I also like you. 🙂
Thanks. That helps me put things in perspective a little.
walk outside and drop it in the sewer.
A swell idea. I ought to.
Yup. March your fanny outside and drop it down the first grate you see. Then march your fanny back inside and drink a cup of tea.
Done. The first part. Yet to make the tea.
Wow Whiskered, thank you. That made my evening. I’m going to go to sleep now.
Yeah do that
I should do that too
I’ve been clean for about five months and it’s still a challenge. Support is what you need to not do that and we are all here for you 🙂
I’ve never cut, but only because I’ve always preferred choking. (Which I don’t recommend by the way— it causes brain damage.) So when I saw that blade, I immediately had much more fatal intentions in mind.
But anyway, it’s awesome how long you’ve been clean. 🙂 Keep going, I believe in you!
Stay strong, fish. I’m here for ya, friend 🙂
Thanks, Trey. I sure am trying.