I’m trying to quit only because if I carry on this way people are going to notice eventually. No one knows but my therapist, who I told because I can’t make myself stop and am hoping she can help me stop. But I love it so, so much. I love the pain and watching the blood, I love feeling like for once I’ve done enough, I’ve made up for my mistakes, I love having flexing my arm during day-to-day life later and having it twinge, I love it all. The only nuisance is people noticing. If not for that I could probably sit and cut all day, my arms, my legs, hell probably my face and neck, too, and it sounds fun.
I know how fucked-up it sounds but there’s nowhere else I can explain this. My therapist is a fairly normal person and there’s no way I can explain this to her.
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Hello. I don’t cut but I understand you very well. It’s your private session of pleasure. Yor scape. Society isn’t prepared for a person who allows herself this cutting ritual which leaves the marks of so much pleasure and intimacy to yoursef. Scars are condemned because the pleasure wad all only yours and because scars aren’t considered beautiful. But they are beautiful because each of them is part of your memories, your story, yourself.
I see nothing wrong on cutting. Nothing at all!!
If people stop bothering you who cut everything would be easier…
🙂