Because I lost everything I had including my child, the boy that got me pregnant left me and called me a liar and a whore, and I feel stuck in the country I hate.
He said that either I was lying about being pregnant (even thou I had a bump) or that if I was, it wasn’t even his because according to him, my ultrasound didn’t look 9 weeks. And people told him I slept with other people like many, and that is not true.
Because I’m a paranoid, depressive psychotic with a troubled childhood who has nowhere else to turn. Details: I’ve been haunted by a demon for almost seven years now. My stepfather overdosed two years ago. I’m hideous and have been bullied and abused my whole life. There are a million reasons why I’m here.
because I care more about being successful and perceived well in the future than whatever might be best for my mental health right now, and as such cannot tell anyone I know in real life about how hard it gets to even imagine a future for myself because I can’t imagine living with these feelings for years on end
because reading about the troubles of the other adults on here just solidifies my belief that my life really is as awful as i think and reinforces how grateful i am to know that it will be over soon.
Needed a place to vent, to openly write without holding back, and depression slowly kicked in from the time I failed calculus 2 and physics in college. I was gonna be an engineer, and then I fucked up, and things went from bad to worse when I decided to come back home to this shithole of an island.. I eventually dropped the last semester and just went to shit. Suicidal thoughts kicked in somewhere along the line and while I know I’ll never act on them, I think my overall anxiety has increased. Also, my self-worth is very much down the toilet, and I’m possibly a bit of a pushover? yay…..
I just remember looking up something about suicide and poof! Link to this page, and the mindless gamer came to be..
Fun fact: I actually used this username on whisper. I don’t even remember how I found whisper, or what I was doing there, but I stopped eventually.
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Because one of my best friends talked me out of buying a gun.
So you buying the gun here?
Sure you selling?
Lol. Nope. Not right now. This forum gave me the strength not to do something rash.
Because I lost everything I had including my child, the boy that got me pregnant left me and called me a liar and a whore, and I feel stuck in the country I hate.
No, not really :p
im sorry, what happened? why did he call you a liar?
He said that either I was lying about being pregnant (even thou I had a bump) or that if I was, it wasn’t even his because according to him, my ultrasound didn’t look 9 weeks. And people told him I slept with other people like many, and that is not true.
Because I have no where else to go.
Because I’m a paranoid, depressive psychotic with a troubled childhood who has nowhere else to turn. Details: I’ve been haunted by a demon for almost seven years now. My stepfather overdosed two years ago. I’m hideous and have been bullied and abused my whole life. There are a million reasons why I’m here.
because I care more about being successful and perceived well in the future than whatever might be best for my mental health right now, and as such cannot tell anyone I know in real life about how hard it gets to even imagine a future for myself because I can’t imagine living with these feelings for years on end
because reading about the troubles of the other adults on here just solidifies my belief that my life really is as awful as i think and reinforces how grateful i am to know that it will be over soon.
I’m not really sure but I want to die
Needed a place to vent, to openly write without holding back, and depression slowly kicked in from the time I failed calculus 2 and physics in college. I was gonna be an engineer, and then I fucked up, and things went from bad to worse when I decided to come back home to this shithole of an island.. I eventually dropped the last semester and just went to shit. Suicidal thoughts kicked in somewhere along the line and while I know I’ll never act on them, I think my overall anxiety has increased. Also, my self-worth is very much down the toilet, and I’m possibly a bit of a pushover? yay…..
I just remember looking up something about suicide and poof! Link to this page, and the mindless gamer came to be..
Fun fact: I actually used this username on whisper. I don’t even remember how I found whisper, or what I was doing there, but I stopped eventually.