I am 14 years old and the reasons for me to sucude are:
1. My exam pressure is too much, even after studing more than 50? in a year my dad isnt satisfied with 80% of average marks and pressurises me whole day and i know i got no bright future woth this much of marks so i want to end this right now. 2.My dad is very rich but I am too poor, i got a low specs pc which has i3 has outstandjng features, a 1.8 years old phone and my dad doesnt want to buy the s7 edge for me after alot of requests. My dad never wants to spend a single dollar on anything 3. my mom abuses whole day and irritates me the whole day with my grandmother who just cant stop speaking. 4. I cant handle things like it is. I have an habit to play football and i dont go out much. I play it in my room and break alot of stuff and my mom beats me alot and abuses me the whole day for it.
Now the point is that i have a dog whom i love more than my parents and spend as much time possible with him. I dont understand what will he do when i am gone forever. One day my dad shouted at me alot and took my phone and everything amd i left the home, he hardly cared and sat back watching the television and i came back after 2 hours when i couldnt find a way to easily sucide. The biggest problem i find is the best way to sucide without any pain, I cant find carbon monoxide or some type of acid to kill me, i ruined myself, my lifestyle, my looks and my belongings and dont want to live anymore at all. Noone knows my story and noone cares about me except my dog. Maybe my dad does but the way he speaks and his attitude really frustrates me all the time he is home. My grandmother and my mother would complain every thing i did not do in a bigger way to make him angry and whenever he is home he shouts at me because of this reason amd stays angry with his god damn duck face. I cry whole day, its 3 days before my last exam and i dont understand what to do, study for my last exam or sucide. A better thing would be that after the exam when i go to my school trip, i can find some way to sucide there which would be quite easy but i however think its not right doing it there because if i would sucide i want to see my dog and hug him for atleast 5 minutes before i die.
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Hey buddy. Questions:
1. Why do you feel like you have to die because you don’t have the absolute best/latest tech? You have a laptop with an i3 processor. Unless you are a PC gamer, and even if you are a casual gamer, that pc is a good pc to have. Having a 1.8 year old phone isn’t bad either. Try surviving with an old nokia phone or an old flip phone in this age… That’s a lot rougher.
Oh man, I’ll have to come back.. I have work soon… :/
you can email me if you want. treygo47@yahoo.com
Hey sweetie. I know you probably don’t want to hear this but you’re so young! You have so much time ahead of you. It might feel as if your parents don’t love you, but I am sure they do. Some people just have a terrible way of showing it. Are you feeling like you don’t have enough supportive people in your life? I know how hard that can be. Hang in there! Post on here. Study for your exam. You can always think about suicide later. It’s always there. But please keep on going.
OK Nimish, how old is your dog? If you love your him as much as you say you do, then stay alive for HIM. Dogs don’t live as long as people. I had one dog live to be 17, another one 13, another one only 9. You get the idea? You’re 14 years old now. Do the math. Most dogs live 8 to 13 years. Some make it to 15, others 17. It depends on the breed. Big dogs don’t normally live as long as small ones. My Bichon Frise made it to 17; my Mastif made it to 10. However old your dog is now, you can kind of figure up a ballpark figure on how much time he’s got left. And then just focus on HIM.
Forget about the tech shit, man. Hell, I’m 50 years old and I don’t even own a cell phone. Believe it or not the ONLY piece of technology I have is this 10 year old Toshiba laptop… and it still runs on a Windows VISTA operating system. It’s slow as fuck, but it gets the job done. Haha!
And hell, you can’t text or IM your dog anyway. And he’s the one you really love. So just focus on HIM. Enjoy your time with him and give him a great life. And after he is gone, you’ll be older. If you still want to kill yourself, well, you’ll be better able to get the job done. Know what I mean?