Searching for jobs is basically a combination of a lot of the things I hate most about life. Being rejected over and over. Being judged constantly. Fighting social phobia to contact people you haven’t seen or talked to in years, asking for introductions to other strangers. Trying to fake a smile and fake a sense of confidence, particularly after having been rejected over and over. Reading job descriptions and feeling more and more depressed at all of the desired qualifications and experience I don’t have. Sending resumes out into what feels like a yawning void.
Ironically, I’ve had a few people contacting me about job openings that are basically the same as the one that contributed to my current burnout, and in the same location where I’ve been circling the drain for years. I can’t do that. The thing is, I don’t know whether there’s any particular job I actually do want. And after my last job there are a lot of things I’d probably be considered overqualified for.
And yeah, if Hell is real and I end up going there, I’ll probably be spending most days sending out cover letters to demons and interviewing with the Devil.
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I feel you %100. I been searching and reading jov descriptions for years teying to get the job or any job in the field that i want. I hate the endless void of applying and rejecting. But i keep doing it. And trying and apply. You mentioned over qualified . im under qualified. Im getting better at cover letters but the endless interviews and possibilities. Its tough. But i hope u find something. But not something you dont want. I dont want warehousing but thats where my skills are from. I wa t clerical or administration. But no creds, skills or degrees. Except that i can type fast and detail oriented. But its not getting me anywhere. But . i keep trying. I hope u find something too !
Omg you put it on words, I can’t believe it. Exactly all of that happens to me, and I’ve been job hunting for a few months now. I hate it SO MUCH. Just today I was thinking about the horrible question “Where do you see your self ten years from now?” and about how my honest answer would be “underground”. It is so tiresome to fake enthusiasms and confidence and hope when you actually want to be dead already.