Married now. Happened very fast. Very scary now. Happened 7/21/2015. He said he would take care of me. I think that’s what pushed me over the ledge.
I love him and care about him but am understandably experiencing cognitive dissonance. There’s a lot more going on with him than I thought.
I’m still not over my dad’s death from several months ago. It still hits me like a ton of bricks, out of the blue. I still miss my kids like crazy and have still been experiencing roadblock after roadblock trying to stay in their lives. But my mom loves me again now that I’m married. Weird, but I’ll take it. It’s nice having a mom again.
I’m still horribly depressed, and have SI every day. Lots of crying constantly.
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I’m glad you have your mom again.