My ex-fiance broke my heart. Yep. He broke off our engagement and continues to beat me emotionally until I’m numb. I want to die. I want someone to take this pain away from me. But nobody ever does. So I think I’ll end my pain. I think I’m going to die today. Don’t tell me life’s worth the fight. My whole life has been one painful experience after another. I can’t do this anymore. I’ve been crying out for help for years. I thought he was going to help me. He broke me in ways I never thought were possible. I will probably never be whole again. I’ve been broken in every way since I was born. I just want someone to love me. I just want somebody to love. But I will never find that. I’m too weird. I’m an outcast. In every way. I just want this pain to stop. I don’t want more friends. Friends always leave you in the end. I’m tired of being alone. I want this pain to go away. I want to end my miserable existence. The one time I’ve ever felt love is going to be the LAST time. I don’t want to love anybody anymore. Love has done nothing in my life except fuck me up. Even God thinks it’s funny to hurt me. I want people to stop hurting me. I just try to love people, but they hurt me in unspeakable ways. When does this end… I just want to feel better…
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Wow my girlend left me I feel the same way I was broken when I met her I thought he fixed me then she left now the world gone back to black and white I no how u feel
The wow was u put everything I’m feeling into words
I literally cry over this dude every day. I’m so tired of my heart being broken.
Mine almost been a year next month I’m still a mess it feels like a part of me has psychically died the emotional pain is to much to bare
I’m still trying to get over my first love we stopped talking last summer after a few years. Im surprised she loved me and now i know no one else will. You are not weird. Someone will love all of us one day. (I hope)
I’m not gonna tell you the bs line that the pain will go away. Sometimes it doesn’t. Sometimes it takes longer than others. But as much as it hurts now, you will build tolerance to the pain. Eventually he wont cross your mind every hour of the day, every day of the week, or every week of every month. I’ve had my heart broken as well, about 2 years now I think. It doesn’t rain as much as it used to.
1. I love how well you articulated yourself, I know you not, but from the way you wrote, you touched me. It absolutely breaks my heart that someone close to you didn’t see what a gem they had. If for no other reason, live to write, cause there’ll always be one person in South Africa being touched by your words.