I just want to die. I’m suffering so much. I don’t want to leave my family and my lovely little cat but I feel I have no alternative. My existence is empty, terrifying and degrading. I’m not talented, I now hate the way I look [Yes you pay for your vanity] and I’m not sociable. I don’t work, I live alone and don’t want to do anything at all but of course I have to kill the time somehow – the net, long walks, watching DVDs, visiting my parents – but it’s all just to survive another day – so I can do the same things tomorrow to try and stave off an inevitable suicide. It’s laughable. My parents are starting to realize how agonizing life is for me – I just wish they’d let me die, my life’s been a terrible burden since I was a kid. I’m now in the doctor’s several times a week fighting for a life that is unbearable. Like I said, laughable.