What if?

I am  sitting here wondering if I cut again what will they do If they see and I told them the fact i did it on purpose…or if I try to kill myself and I fail what on earth will they do?

Before me husband threaten to to tell my dad and brother but he not talking to my family but have to live with his . I really dont give two flying fucks if he tells his parents I would love to see there recations.

 they talk about it….it would look bad on there part becuse every one we know ..knows im not like that or will I get a nick name like suicide Sophie….this girl is older than I met her twice. She had cuts on her arms and face some were scabed over some scars some were still bleeding  ……the day I met her father was killed by drunk driver her mother was in icu .her sister blamed herslef for her fathers death and tried to kill self that night Infront of me they need three grown man to pull the knife away .I remember how it shined in the dark room .

Would I get name like that I wonder mabey he would start helping with life if he saw the cuts or mabey throw me away ….i dont know I think I will try to find out…