I’ve been lying to everyone about how good im doing in school and that ill be graduating in two weeks and have all these great plans for the future and that me and my bf are happy and i have jobs lined up and everything they expect to here.
But im not doing well in school at all. Im failing four classes so i wont be graduating. Im not going back to school and i have no jobs lined up, havent even looked into it. Ill be moving in a month but i have no house situation prepared. And i dont think me and my bf are doing well. The only reason he isnt breaking up with me is because he thinks ill kill myself. So i expect him to do it after schools out and hes moves. Its just a matter of time. He talks to me less and seems to be avoiding me. My roommate is also very unhelpful knowing i stopped my medication because i dont think its right for me. She just tells me life is only gonna get harder…thanks but i do just fine at filling my head with negative thoughts, dont need anyone else helping…
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You should finish school, you’ll regret it later unless you have something else lined up. Don’t worry, you can manage without a partner, sure it’s nice to have someone, but you’ll live. Regarding jobs and homes, the best thing is to just ask around. Like, just ask as many people as possible if they know somewhere you can live and somewhere you can work. It’s much more effective than trying to do it on your own.
My heart breaks for you hunny. Not out of pity, because going through hard times takes strength, but out of a shared experience of pain. I know what it’s like to have to lie about what’s really going on. And you so wish it could all just be true. I really think you’ll be okay. Toxic people like your roommate do no good for you. It’s hard but you need to be supportive for yourself right now. Hugs.
Thanks, that actually makes me feel a little better. I haven’t heard too many supportive words lately. Hoping I can fake it till I make it.
I’m so sorry hun..
I’ve been lying about going to university and doing great in school… I’ve been hiding at home, being forced to look up trade schools even though it makes no sense π
I’m in a similar situation…