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End feels near

by nuclearbackpack

I live in a truly depressing dump, I don’t have the will to do anything and I spend hours awake in bed staring at the ceiling. I think I am sliding into insanity.  I’ve got no friends – only aging parents to lean on. I’ve been on new medication for almost a month and it’s not working so far – only given me Insomnia.  Laughably, I’m in the doctors every few days fighting to live a life that is truly awful – and to top it all I truly look like I’ve been dragged through hell. Why wouldn’t I?  I’ve been a loner for thirty years since leaving school but in recent years I’ve just run out of steam to keep going. Life is pure agony for unlucky ones like me.


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rocketman 5/8/2016 - 3:04 pm


stupid question what is wrong with you?

nuclearbackpack 5/8/2016 - 3:29 pm

Depressive, misfit, loser.

rocketman 5/8/2016 - 3:35 pm

nuclearbackpack, i think i’m all those thing’s 🙂 maybe were twins? but i’m trying hard to beat it, and things are getting better 🙂

mysteriousvisitor 5/8/2016 - 4:03 pm

This artificial society with all its stress and over-thinking everything creates so much suffering. People label others as losers, when we created the entire concept of being a loser. In reality there is no such thing, humans simply exist, but we must feed our egos by screaming “I’m not one of (whatever)”. There are not ‘depressed people’ or ‘happy people’. There are simply emotions and different people experience different ranges and intensities of those emotions. Animals suffer too, but we humans have elevated suffering to a whole other level.

nuclearbackpack 5/8/2016 - 6:37 pm

Well put.

rocketman 5/8/2016 - 4:13 pm

mysteriousvisitor, ok I’ll it!!!! 🙂

Rocketman screaming at the top of his lungs!!! I AM NOT A WINNER!! I AM NOT A WINNER!!

mysteriousvisitor, I don’t think it’s working! 🙁

yes i agree with you, i might add if you think your a (whatever) you will become one. So everyone get your mind out of the gutter, and think positive.

mysteriousvisitor 5/8/2016 - 4:33 pm

Oh rocketman, if only. I try to remind myself that I am not this or that because those are arbitrary, meaningless labels. But I still have to live in this world, a world where I have no hope.

rocketman 5/8/2016 - 4:53 pm

mysteriousvisitor, no hope? why? i have no hope of being a professional baseball player but i can still play ball.

And no I don’t play baseball that was one of my original analogies. 🙂

hope432 5/8/2016 - 4:28 pm

I have something very important to share with you. Two years ago, I was in the same situation, having no desire to do anything. I used to stare at the wall and sometimes I was also staring at the ceiling…. I also went for lonely walks in my dull city and sometimes I was siting down and watching a bush for hours, which gave me a feeling of dullness.
One day as I was going for a walk, I started to think: “what if I put an end to my life?” And the thoughts of commiting suicide gave me some relief.
I also never had any friends.

But my life changed amazingly for the better in the next two years. I found out something extraordinary, which has changed my life and gave me a lot of hope. I learned many things about the future of our planet and society for the coming years. It seems all of our lives will be drastically changed in the near future.

You have no need to commit suicide. Everything will change.

If you want to learn all the information about the coming earth changes, the future of humanity and also the consequences of suicide email me at: manuel_nasu13 at yahoo.com
You can reach out to me and I will help you change your life.

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