Fraud

Hello.  Haven’t posted in a while.  Testing week was hell.  Tired.  Ended testing week off with an important interview.  Felt like a fraud.  I dressed up as something I wasn’t.  Smiled.  Used hand gestures.  I was articulate.  They seemed very pleased.  The final question was why I thought I deserved the position.  I wanted to scream out I didn’t deserve it.  That I was a fraud.  That I was a liar.  That I was a horrible person.  I sat there for 30 seconds.  I finally came up with some bullshit answer.  They said I got it.  Went up to shake their hand.  I felt a smile coming on to my face.  I feel disgusted with myself.  I’m a terrible person.  Thank you for listening.