After a month, I was able to hear her voice. I spoke with my daughter. I told her that I love her and miss her. She said that she can’t wait to see me. I didn’t have the heart to tell her that I won’t be here anymore.
I haven’t seen her in 4 months. After a 30 minute conversation with her, my level of joy and relief was overpowered by the truth. I will never be good enough to be in her life or to be with her mother. I have no other known idea than to give up.
I have never once given up on anything that I have believed in. I believe in love, truth, trust and reality.
The reality of this truth is that she doesn’t want or trust the real undying love that I have for her.
I HAVE TO GIVE UP. Otherise more lives than my own will be destroyed beyond repair.
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That’s deep. I can feel exactly where you’re standing. I can’t offer much help. So sorry.
A wise friend once told me, if you care enough to question your ability to parent, you’re probably a good dad.
Obvious flaws to that. Also some underlying truth.
I haven’t spoken to my oldest in 2 years now. It hurts. So, just so you know I know. Feel free to email me if you want to talk in depth about anything.
retrospectivesuicidalepiphany, The fact your asking for a sign tells me it’s not there, i say stick around and see what happens.
I’ve talked to god talked to myself. Talked with every one I can. Friends. Family. Preachers. Saints. Pastors. Bishops priests and revrends. Deacons. My own demons. Their answer has not changed. Give up.
Been there too. So bad my mom changed her phone number. Been down and out. I’m not going to pressure. No false hopes here. But, I mean, maybe, maybe we talk? Maybe we got a few things in common? Maybe not…
Im sorry to hear this my brothee I am here wen yu jus want me to be here if yu need someone