I’ve only posted on here so many times but I’ve never really gotten deep into how I feel or what my life is like, mainly because I know nobody cares, but right now, things are so hard and I just really really wanna kill myself. The days are emotions range, I’m never truly happy though. I don’t think I can be happy on this earth anymore. Not until I leave it but I’m just at a really awful point right now and I don’t know what I’m looking for I just want to kill myself and feel so incredibly alone it’s awful.
I’m here, and I care. I’m in pretty much the same spot as you tonight, hailee, so I don’t have much advice to give. But it isn’t true that nobody cares.
Thank you for caring, if you want or need to talk about anything, I’m always here
Of course. You’ve helped me before several times, and I appreciate you and your existence.
Please, though, don’t expend your energy on me, when you are in such a state as this. You need that energy for yourself.
Honestly, helping others makes me feel just thee slightest bit better, and I like doing it, so I’m the person to give all of my energy to someone just to help them, so really, I’ve got your back and everything
Well, that’s a very noble quality to have. And again, I appreciate it.
I already made a post about how I’m doing (the one before yours), but I’m kind of unhelpable at this point. As much as I want help, I hate how much I upset people when they try to help me and realize that they can’t.
Did I ever tell you how much your icon looks like a rocket ship? It’s awesome.
Haha I know, I didn’t make it that, it’s just the one I got, it’s pretty cool. But yeah it’s the same with me, I’ve never been one to ask for help under any circumstance
Well, that could be why you’re in such dire straits tonight. What’s your reasoning for not asking for help?
I guess I don’t want to be a bother or something, I don’t know, it’s weird. It’s a few things, another one being I don’t want to seem desperate or anything
Oh. Well that’s more understandable and less weird than you might realize. I think that’s a lot of the reason why so many others shy away from asking for help.
But, if asking for help could save your life, I can’t help but think that it would be worth it. I think that you surviving would be worth looking like a burden or looking desperate.
Again, though, I literally do the exact same thing (avoid asking for help), so I’m not judging you or anything like that. Nor am I trying to be a hypocrite. Personally, I don’t value my life very much at all, so I don’t think that saving my life is worth looking desperate or looking like a burden, because I don’t think my life is worth, well, anything. But if you value your life even somewhat (and forgive me for assuming that you do) it would make sense to take that small risk of it meant that you could live. I know it can be a daunting challenge, though. But I believe in you, if that means anything.