My parents took me in. I have no idea how I got here. I can’t figure out how to care about anything. I miss my ex like crazy. It’s been a long time and I still wish I could have her back. We were together six years and I really thought it was going to be forever. Now I’ve had 3 jobs since last year and can’t seem to hold anything down. I really just still want to end it but I’m afraid and know it would kill my parents. I’m not sure anyone else would care and not sure how to make friends or have someone in my life at this point. When do you know it’s just time to give up and your best years are behind you?
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How old are you may i ask?
Hmmm…That’s up to you decide when you think your best years are behind you. I remember all of the times I wanted to give up, but eventually pushed myself to keep going and had more great moments. Problem with this year is I’m having more bad times than good. That’s what it feels like. Hopefully you can find motivation to keep going. This sounds like a situation you can overcome.
Luckily, I’m not missing my ex at all. That bridge has been burned to the ground. Going back to an ex is not a good idea from experience so try to move on with your life. I know it’s difficult.
^ That’s up to you to decide, I mean.
I’m with you my friend, I woke up one day and was 41. Time flows faster these days, not a slow easy stream like it was in your twenties. I feel like a shell or a husk of the younger person I was, ‘nothing is very much fun anymore’ and those honorable beliefs held by the young have all but dissipated. Friends are now acquaintances – even the best of friends and the importance of friendship has taken a back seat (at the back of the bus) behind work and achieving, something which only I will not adhere to but I am the only one who says ‘its only work’ or ‘its only money’ and not because I failed as making money has always come easy to me, but because I never let it define me, I would rather be defined by my infallible friendship.
Just another one of those things that goes away with your youth, I guess. In the past 5 years I think I feel closer to characters in tv shows more than lifelong friends and I KNOW this is a sad and potentially dangerous situation. I feel like its gone too long, this life, and though I know its like eating the muffin top and throwing away the muffin bottom, I just don’t think that I have it in me to go on growing old and have no need or reason or desire to do so.
I completely understand. I feel the same. I felt good at my job several years ago but then let my depression control me and got into drinking. I’m no longer drinking but feel like I haven’t been able to get back into gear. Thank goodness for tv and movies.
I’m 34 almost 35. Feel like the amount of stupid decisions I’ve made lately I should be in my twenties. I owe so much money I can’t see turning it around without several years. I have no idea how I landed my ex and have no idea how to meet someone else. Realizing I’m probably going to be alone the rest of my life.
I’m alone too, but I also felt alone in my relationship. I feel like I’ll be alone the rest of my life as well. I can’t even fathom having a relationship again. It takes too much energy and I am drained of life. I used to be a hopeless romantic, now that part of me is gone. I just think people are temporary. Relationships don’t last. Nothing does. What’s the point? Everything inside is dead.
@AllHopeAbandon made a perfect post. I also identify more with TV characters. I even fell in love with a celebrity over the years. That love has turned more into just a respect and looking at him as a role model. It doesn’t hurt that he acknowledged my existence multiple times. Hehe Anyway, I also feel this life has gone on too long. I feel soooo weak…Like an empty vessel. Sorry for rambling.
There’s no such thing as rambling. It’s nice to have someone to talk to if even pretend. I’m hooked on strop clubs and as of today can’t afford them. It’s nice to have even fake attention. I’m probably going to do it tomorrow. I just have nothing.
Last one is today. I think I’m addicted.
Have you tried online dating? Could be worth a shot.
Yep. Never got a reply back from anyone. Think I’m to ugly.