Another song I wrote a while back and decided to record (poorly). Basically a suicide note, a very mild one, in song form.
Verse
I don’t wanna bother you anymore
Because I know how much that hurts
I don’t wanna be there at your door
Making your life so much worse
But I can’t help that I exist
So I’ll move along this process
And I’m not the sappy type
So I’ll keep this letter short
It’s the last that I will write
But don’t think it’s your fault
I’ve got a better place to be
And you’ve got better people to see
Pre-chorus
I’m sorry it took so long
I’ve been meaning to right this wrong
I’m so sorry for the wait
But they say it’s never too late
Chorus
I’m moving on
And I, I, I’m
Just afraid of the other side
They say it’s greener
But I imagine it’s black and whi-i-ite
I’m movin’ on
I’m movin’ on
Verse
I don’t wanna be your albatross
Another burden on your back
I’d rather be a sudden loss
‘Cause you’ll realize there’s no lack
I know it’s still inopportune
But you’ll see the benefits real soon
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Love your songs Nicole, you’re a brilliant writer and the lyrics are awesome :0)
I really appreciate that, especially coming from a seasoned musician like you. Seriously, it means a lot 🙂
Bless you ^_^ your work is real and it’s hard not to like! very gifted songwriter. I was looking on your SoundCloud, do you not post your songs there?
I haven’t posted any of the ones with lyrics, just my instrumental ones. I wish I had more professional mixing software to record the songs and such. I’m kind of embarrassed at the poor quality of my recordings.
I have listened to your 3 instrumental pieces, I love Window Shopping!!! I think the sound quality is brill! what software have you used for these 3?
It is a very expensive hobby, the equipment isn’t cheap and there is so much of it needed :-s I don’t know where to start with it all sometimes lol. I use to just use a PC mic and record right from the midi keyboard and I found it embarrassing to so I can get what you’re saying there. But I still use to post on a few composition sites, if a piece is good then its good despite its recording quality its a shame though :-/ and often I see a lot of people that have all the equipment you can think of but their composing is really not good lol typical!!
Now I just use Pro-Tools, mic and a couple of sound libraries that I got from a website called Gear4Music its not to bad cost wise but, I did still have to save up a while 😀 and its still not the best quality its just a step up from what I use to do really. its never ending so you can only just be happy with what you do have to work with. don’t be embarrassed!! your work is good and that stands out regardless of its sound quality :0)
Aww thanks!! I have been listening to your pieces as well! Do you write all the music that you have on there?? It’s awesome stuff! For instance, do you write for movies or were covering the songs from “Safari”?
I actually just use Garageband and some guitar pedals, then mess with EQ a bit. Nothing special. I just use the PC mic as well. It’s hard not to peak on the louder parts, but the compression tool helps a bit with that. I’d love to add drums to my singer/songwriter pieces, but without good software and drum mics, the quality is awful. I have a Cajon that I use, but even that just sounds like horse hooves on my computer lol.
I really appreciate your encouragement. I went to college for guitar, and I was surrounded by these amazing musicians, and nobody ever directly discouraged me, but, and maybe this is the depression part of me distorting reality, I always felt like trash in comparison. I let my dream of making music die for a long time. In fact, I haven’t written a proper song in a couple of years. I’m just trying to get back into it by recording the ones I already wrote to remind myself what I loved about it. I also don’t know where to go with any of it. How do you just become a musician? There are so many talented musicians out there that it seems impossible to do.
How do you become a musician? you already are one! ^_^ you don’t need fame and riches or even a job title to be something. All of us are what we do… If writing songs is your passion and what you do then you already are that thing. Not many people work a job that is their passion, even well known composers that have made a living from it still rely on teaching and other things when composition opportunities have dried up… Or they are not willing to sell their souls lol depends how you look at it 😀 It’s not a reflection on a person being a better musician/composer necessarily but just luck of the draw, being in the right place at the right time or more often then not, knowing the right people. Being a known composer comes with a huge weight and is over rated lol compose for your own self is the best kind of composition I feel, it is an art that way… not just a job :0)
If and when you write any more singer/song writer pieces, I’d be happy to write some beats for them and send you the audio file back to add your vocals.
Safari is a really old score, I composed a few things when I was using the PC mic a few years ago that I never got around to putting on my soundcloud. I have been making plans to exit and wanted to put all my work on there first lol. I cant get in the mood to work on then though really :-s not sure if its just cause they are old or cause I am done with it so I haven’t even given them an orchestration or anything :-/ just did a very basic recording so they was on there really.
This is a beautiful song. It speaks of what I deeply feel right now.
NicoleK, Pretty nice voice and guitar playing! you have talent! if wish you would consider writing happy stuff! music is a very influentially tool, especially when your good! while listening to that song i was humming and ready to put a rope around my neck! i’m joking with you of course 🙂 but really you should use your talent to make people smile! it’s more rewarding. i’m also a hypocrite, i think of doom and gloom myself. but it’s good therapy to write happy crap too! 🙂
I actually do have some happy songs! I’ll have to share those. I tend to agree with your belief that music should be used to help people, and I want to do that. But of course, it’s also therapeutic for me, which means there will be doom and gloom in there too 😉
NicoleK, Thanks for being so kind, i would love to hear happy songs too! i have a weakness for talented musicians.
NicoleK, I sing and have band equipment, P A Sytems, light show, karaoke equipment, but no good recording equipment, i need to work on that myself i know the feeling.
It may have gotten lost in the shuffle, but have you posted any music? Or do you have a soundcloud for you and your band? I have a weakness for talented musicians as well!
Love your music.. I can relate to the lyrics. Very talented
NicoleK, Well this is where I am present day, i have all the equipment for a band, i’ve been in many, i haven’t been in a band for years, i had to chose between a good profession and a living, i’m very good at business, tough choice i had to make, i love entertainment, so i still have all my equipment i’d never get rid of it, always dreaming of returning back to entertainment my passion, i’m old school, Rolling Stones, Billy Idol, Cars, J. Geils, Bob Seger and so on, i still in my home, after the bands i would go to and host karaoke, but i quit that to, work became more demanding, but i’m getting ready to get started again, in the next couple of years, i’m preparing to retire, so my goal is to put another band together and do Casio’s, they seem to be a good target group for my kind of music, so that’s what is keeping me alive at the moment.
Ah, old school is the best. Actually, I love music from every era and genre, but as far as rock goes, those are the classics. Do you play an instrument as well as sing? Just curious. I love hearing from others about their art. I think it’s awesome that you’re getting back into it. I totally get the choosing a good profession and a living thing. Unfortunately, I can’t find a good job for the life of me. Walmart it is for now!
Also, here’s a happy song! Not great quality, but oh well. Also, my roommate is harmonizing on the fly lol
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Lisa Loeb!!!! that’s who you remind me of 😀
That’s a major compliment!!! Thanks!
NicoleK, Harmonica I like doing that on the house of rising sun, tambourine, the fish! it sounds awesome on “give me shelter” Rolling Stones, I am a front man, so i don’t get to involved with technical instruments, Maracas i shake 4 of them in one hand! that really is tough! 🙂 however i love instruments, piano, sacks, organ, guitar, i have a great respect for people that play them, i love the show, it’s all about the show for me, creating magic! i did make money doing it, and did play in front of large crowds, the biggest was 3000, hey that is a lot of people! 🙂 i’ve rubbed shoulders with some big names, i use to rent out my studio to bands that rehearse for the LA Colosseum, even sang with them at practice, they got bored doing just their own songs 🙂 well that’s life! i have memories of trying to follow my my dreams, and got derailed, i have a nice house, i can’t complain about my life style, i have more than most, if i could do it all over again, i’d probably do the same thing, it made since at the time.