I am sorry for literally everything upsetting I have done in my life. I keep screwing everything up for everyone, and I’m sorry. I won’t let people help me, and I’m sorry. If this letter of self-pity is terribly written, I’m sorry.
I always say I’m sorry about everything, and I don’t think anyone believes me. I promise that I truly am. So, if someone who knows me for the worthless mass of pity that I am, I’m sorry.
I’m probably gonna screw myself over tonight, and with any luck, I won’t wake up in the morning. I just want to get rid of myself.
I’m sorry mom, for being so aggravated at you. You were going through hard times, and I’m sure I only made it harder. Dad, I’m sorry for not telling you how much of a mess I am. I’m a filthy liar. I guess you were right when you said, “If your word’s no good, then you are no good.” Brother, I’m sorry that I let things go out of hand. I hope you can forgive me for what I’ve done. I understand why you feel so spiteful towards me, and I don’t condemn you for it. Sister, I’m sorry that I was so aggravated at you all the time. It’s not that I hated you by any means, but in fact, quite the opposite. Friends, I’m sorry that I was a poor, liar of a friend. Thank you all for helping me get as far as I did. And Katelyn, forgive your mother for whatever she has done. I can tell that she cares about you (though she is a bit harsh) and you should care for her.
I’ve said what I needed to say, though I’m sorry for not being able to say it in person. If you choose not to forgive me, I will understand. It is your choice.
Eloi, Eloi, lema sabachtani?!
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You’re forgiven. You’ve always been forgiven because believe it or not you cannot make a mistake. You’re very hard on yourself. Hold on, hang on, You’ll be ok because you’re really just perfect. Believe this. Believe in you.