And I’m more determined than ever to exit this torture.
Those of you who have access to an easy and quick method are very lucky. For me it will be falling from a height, drowning or hanging. I’m obviously deeply agitated by the effect on my parents and brother but my agony simply has to end. I have lost the will to live and just lie in bed all day getting more and more stressed and no doubt, insane. It’s not a life, it’s purgatory. And when winter arrives god knows how I’ll cope – its always a time my mood gets worse and will to do things weakens.
My note is written, it’s simply a matter of gaining the courage, something I’ve never had in life.
I’ve started jogging despite being unfit, hopefully I’ll drop dead. God just please kill me.
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Well I am sorry that things are this bad for you. 5 days out of the psych ward. I have been in there several times. Each time for suicide ideation or depression. Each time I got out I did get better and continued on living. The last time i was in there was about 8 months ago.
I hope that somehow you get peace. I ether hope that you find a way to live and be happy or that you get your peace some other way.
Your right people that have access to a simple painless way to go are blessed.
Me i had that Opportunity one time > but I screwed it up. Now I am here enduring each day. Doing my best to get my bucket list times accomplished.
Good luck. I wish you peace
Thank you.