I see others that are ahead of me, and I begin to feel like a total loser. Being productive is something I have to force myself to do. Is it this way for everyone? I wish I could put the risks behind me and just do what I need to do, as apposed to letting them consume me. I’m afraid to do almost anything out of fear. Surely, this isn’t normal.
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i know how you are feeling….this thing is happening with me too…i have the same problem of low self esteem…the solution to the problem is to keep yourself busy with things you love to do the most…i hope this may help you…! take care…
Just had a situation recently that made me ask all the same questions. Applied for a job, first time I’ve tried in a while, and they actually called back. Proceeded to have anxiety attacks about just needing to call them back, asking myself if I could really imagine going back to a full time job, etc. I made it through one phone call and we left it that I would get back to them about if I wanted to come visit and tour the place. I was proud of myself that I managed to call and figured I had a few days to think. I slept late the next day, and when I woke up I had missed another text from someone asking if they could call me. So I freaked out all over again. Long story short I emailed them to basically say they should focus on the other people who applied and that I was backing out. And now I sit here and wish I hadn’t. I went from wishing I could undo the first email where I sent my application, to now wishing I could undo the email where I said never mind. My fears got the best of me. Social anxiety. Avoidant personality. Whatever it is. I lost. Now I just have one more thing to be ashamed of. Life offered me a chance to act like an adult again and go do something that would be good for myself. I ran away.
Yeah being productive is so very hard…. -_- I highly doubt I will ever do anything with my life :/
I’ve lost motivation for many activities that I found enjoyable before. Things I’ve wanted to accomplish and what seemed like an easy path to do so doesn’t seem easy anymore. Whatever “easy” even meant for me before all my problems began. I can relate to how you’re feeling; I see myself as a loser the majority of the time and it seems I’m always far behind everyone else.
If I could forget my fears and just walk forward I believe I could do so much but I don’t see that as an option right now. You’re not alone, this is possibly more normal than we believe.
That’s how I feel down to a tee. I feel better knowing that I’m not completely alone.
you have to do what’s necessary to live the life style you want. it’s that way for everyone.