Give me the courage to end this hell. I’m not made for this world and my agonizing life of severe depression is only going to end up getting even worse: mental illness.
Release me from this horrific burden and do it as soon as possible. You’ve watched me, you know I’ve struggled to stay alive for my family but there is only so much I can take, you know that.
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I know how you feel and i pray you get the peace you deserve in whatever way possible. I pray the same thing about myself
I’m so sorry for your pain and hurt. feel like this all the time. The world is so screwed up and dealing with the burden of mental illness Is so trying. I sometimes feel like people in my life (mostly my husband) would be better if I were not here. Or how God could use my death better than my life.
I’ve asked for death so many times but in the end I wake up and I’m still here. And I think “why???”. In my experience I’ve seen that it’s because I was needed to help someone else. Whether it was to help them with their struggle of mental illness, to help them feel loved or to help them know God and His love even more. Maybe the same is true for you. Guess God wants us here for something; someday we will see why.
What do you mean by mental illness? Depression itself is so called mental illness
Psychosis. I believe I will develop it. I already see signs of it.
You mean schizophrenia right? Because that shit’s genetic, you don’t just develop it out of the blue. I should know, I have it.
I know what you mean, I tried to lighten it up. I already developed it.
Its not true psychosis. Like Konig said, thats genetics. But more like worn out brain that will produce psychotic symptoms. Don’t know the cure yet…
And I don’t mean to burst your bubble here, but… there ain’t no God, sonny. Sorry ’bout that.
hang in there, do something you enjoy it helps.
What do you do when you don’t enjoy anything anymore ?
I would like to believe that god exists but all evidence (in my own life) points to the contrary. If by any chance or misfortune he does exist, I don’t think he is listening.
I’ve seen so many people suffer pointlessly and die even though they were better human beings than me.
All that is to say: don’t expect god to release you of anything.
It is my realistic opinion
There is no God only yourself in this one no one will help you only provide you with good wishes so stay strong and hope you find the peace your troubled mind has suffered.