I Am Scared Too See You

I can actually say that I don’t feel that way for you. I know this because when we talk I don’t feel like I used to. I can comfortably talk to you without the sad void I feel after our conversations. I always tend to think out scenarios in my head and I imagine, for some reason, seeing you once again for the first time in a long time and suddenly falling back to those feelings. I want to see you again because it has been a while and I feel that I owe; you but I am scared to ask because I feel guilty for last time. I am scared too see you because I don’t want to love you.