You are loved

This is my first post, though I’ve perused many over the past few months. I have found a lot of comfort here, but have also felt so much despair seeing so much pain put into words.

You see, I was shocked and blindsided by the loss of my husband, the father of my children, my life partner for 11 years, my best friend, to suicide on June 13, 2015.

I plan to post more at a later time, but felt incredibly compelled to post this now…. You are loved.

I don’t know you and you don’t know me, but I hope you read this (yes, I’m talking to YOU) and that you decide to use one of the many resources to help you through this awful time in your life. You are worth so much more than the pain you’re in right now. I promise, things will get better!!! They absolutely will!!!

I wish so much that my husband would have called one of these numbers when he felt he had nothing left…. He could have possibly had the opportunity to see how many incredible things he had to live for, just like you.

Considering the pain losing him has caused his parents, our children, his siblings, my parents, his/our friends, our families and everyone else who knew him, I can only imagine the extent of his suffering, especially during his final days. He was so kind, gentle, and selfless, he wouldn’t have ever “done this to us”…. However, it actually happened and though we are all affected, he did nothing directly to us. I finally came to realize this after time passed. I’ve also determined that considering who he was (how he lived, not how he died) ONLY goes to prove his level of suffering, which he sadly endured silently and completely alone.

Please, give at least one of these resources at least one chance. And remember, even if you succumb to the urge, you are so, so very LOVED

http://www.suicide.org-hotlines.html