Hi all,
I’ve been reluctant to post here for a little while, because I’m afraid of identifying with dark things, but I don’t feel at home anywhere else. I was in a lot of trouble just a week and a half ago, dialing the suicide prevention hotline when a friend of mine called. Our conversation went well and the next day I decided to book a trip to Costa Rica. Not on impulse, I had been planning on taking a vacation anyway. Just the same I have felt very uninspired and was projecting past my vacation to a slow death or more thoughts of suicide.
I spoke with that same friend tonight, telling him I have nothing to give, except I thought I might write something that might give somebody comfort like the comfort that I sought when I found this site (I googled “praying for death.”) I’m feeling better if only just a little bit, I’ve had some inspired ideas, teaching biology to underprivileged people.
The image that came to mind was that of a photon sphere, the light that surrounds a black hole, that’s what I thought of when I envisioned my identification with the people here. There’s another, but I want to research it a little more before I post about it.
I’d like to start posting here regularly, I’m going to forsake my fear of affirming my identification with suicidal people.
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Yu have so much money yu can jus up nd travel like that but yet ur on this site?
Not every problem is caused by lack of money, nor can an abundance of money solve every problem. Just because someone has money and can travel when and where they want, doesn’t mean they can’t also be depressed or suicidal.
Hi there Heda. Welcome to SP. I’m Trey, the mindless gamer. Nice to meet you.
Anhedonic apathy makes a good point. Also, suicidal thoughts and depression do
not give a flying fuck who you are or what your position is in life…. Anyone can be affected by things like that..
Anyways, my email : treygo47 at gmail
Feel free to message me anytime.
But money = options so why choose suicide
Yeah, money would give me an option to buy a gun. If not, at least to buy a decent telescope.
Yea exactly pluto did yu see what shattered said to yu earlier , he said he was suprised at how yu were a fan of neil cuz he always talkin that pluto isnt a planet lol it was funny nd tray yu never offered but I see how it is its becuz of my screen name isnt it? Im not cool enough for gamer
Hahaha, don’t worry. His mom said I was big enough.
Trey never gave me his contact , I see how it is
@Iwantpeace2, it’s right there if you want to message me..
Maybe he only offers his contact info to rich people lol
Rich people as in monetarily?
Yea that must be wat it is
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Funny thing, just scrolled to this a short time after my first Post here.
I’d love to hear more about those inspired ideas. I think an Inspiration aka reason to live is about as important as food and O².
Hey oqoobo,
Some of the inspired ideas are the following: leading trips for underprivileged people to see some awesome things, especially natural wonders that I also want to visit, teaching inmates how to read, doing outreach with Native American communities, taking better care of my fish, dating, cleaning up my apartment. I’ve gone over a day without a suicidal thought which is the longest I’ve gone in a very long time.
Yu not even gon deny this tray smfhhh
Just email me, omg.