I’m really glad I got to see them a few weeks ago. Was amazing. It will be my last. I wish I was well, but I am not, and will never be.
My birthday is coming up, and I know I won’t make it. Would be so hard this year. I cannot bear it, or the coming months. I can’t. I really can’t. Don’t you understand?
Please God, I’ve asked you for help, to make things okay, to let good things happen. Please. I know you don’t exist but I pleaded anyway. I was meant for nothing good on this earth.
So many bad things have happened.
Bad people.
I gave away what I had left. The very little I had left.
I am completely devastated.
We all know, it was my last. There is nothing left. No part of me is okay anymore. Fact.
I am no longer the girl I once was, and that changed a long time ago. Whatever I had left, I pushed forward in hopes for better. Nothingness.