I’m on Suicide Watch

I know what it feels like having such a destroyed and painful life that death seems a good idea to you. I live with major depression for 3 years know and I m having a horrible time thinking about death. Only my mother is the exact opposite of your parents: she ignores it completely. I could have killed myself a thousand times but I didn’t and even if my head is fucking hurting and I m such a mess I don’t think I ever will. The point is ; do you really want to kill yourself? Because if your parents have come to this you must have given them more than good reasons to act that extreme way. I personally had to go to a psychiatric hospital for putting my life in danger. The point I m going to make won’t probably please you but I hope somehow it will help. After doing what I did I realized I just acted in a childish way
In fact all I did, was to raise attention, who my pain and make my mother and stepfather pay for not giving a shit about me and being disrespectful. I realised that if I really want to die it won’t be just a suicide attempt I would make it quietly, act as if I’m perfectly fine and tell nobody so that I m perfectly sure there is no coming back. So I see three options for you : continue to act as you do and your parents will go on with their intrusive behaviours, try to calm down and make them understand they can trust you and so regain your autonomy. I ll advise you the second choice. From then on you could whether try to have more control over your life and fox things or kill yourself if you think that life is so painful that you would to give up.