A most generic greeting uttered without thought. A greeting I’m sure many of us struggle to answer, I know I do. I absolutely loathe it.
It’s been almost a month since I last posted. How am I? Pretty shit.
The trauma I suffered now triggers severe anxiety attacks and I may never fully recover from the injuries I sustained.
That on top of a despairing outlook for me means things are most likely to get even more shit.
I feel like I’ve lost 10 years of my life due to the stress. If only it were a hundred years lost, that way I’d definitely be dead by now and all my problems would be solved. But no… Things are never that simple and I’m now being strung along a pointless existence.
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I just read your previous post about the fall, sorry to hear that things haven’t improved for you. Based on where you live they do offer euthanasia for people with terminal illness. I’m sure with what you described, they could probably grant it to you-if you felt there is no other solution for you.
One thing that’s understood within my family is that none of us wish to be revived if we’re in an accident and there’s no hope of recovery. That gives me some peace in knowing that I won’t be in a hospital depending on machines to keep me alive-that is no life at all, that’s endless torture.
Anyhow given what you’ve been through and your traumatic injuries and if there is no chance of ever being ‘normal’ again, then as mentioned euthanasia might be an option for you. If you’re in the US in a state that it’s banned then you might need to go to a place like Holland-I’ve heard some people doing that, but you’d need to do you research first.
People don’t seem to understand that a happy healthy life is a fragile thing-as you eloquently described in your previous post and it can easily be taken away in an instant. When our pets are irreparably injured, diseased or old, we realize that there is no need for them to suffer in a diminished state and we have them sensibly and mercifully put down.
If only that same common sense was applied to humans then we wouldn’t even need a website like this. Those who genuinely wanted to end their lives would’ve been granted their wish without question. It’ll happen one day I’m sure as society continues to become more civilized, but until then we’re stuck with the status quo, which means we force people to keep living in pain and misery and call it ‘good morals.’
I should add that Canada (where I am) recently legalized euthanasia for the terminally ill also, however if I recall correctly they won’t offer it to Americans. Hopefully it has changed, but you’d need to do some research.
I’m not really suicidal anymore but I wouldn’t really care if I did die, so I suppose it’s still a thought that comes every so often. If I ended up in an irreversible coma then yeah, my family would let me go.
Euthanasia isn’t legal here in the UK and besides, I don’t think there is such a thing as being terminally injured. Not to medical professionals anyway.
I’m just sick of the same old placations…
“It’ll be okay.”
“Just think positive.”
“Just give it time.”
I know things will NOT be okay and thinking positive is truly delusional given my position. And give it time? That’s exactly what is making it worse. I would either stop time so things won’t get worse, or go back so I can avoid this path. Instead, I’m constantly left with the short end of the stick.