To see such a wonderful person whom has been through so much continue to be hopeful. I see the battle she goes through refusing to let the negative things in her life change her into a cold person. Sometimes it overcomes her and she’s mean and cold but then she catches herself and stops. I can see the love and care she has in her, that kindness that she is so ashamed of. I see how she gives it all away to those around her, I see some of the most undeserving people take it from her. I see them use her and treat her like she’s less than what she truly is and I hurt for her. I see how she forgives them and continues this same process and I want so badly to save her. She is beautiful in her own way and she hears it from people around her, I tell her she’s beautiful. When I say that and look into her eyes she looks back at me like I’m filling her head with lies. I love her, I see what her true intentions are and I more than anyone understands her, I SEE her! And it breaks my heart that she doesn’t feel the same.
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Nobody can ignore feelings, they just have to be translated better. For some, it takes words, for others it takes actions to reach them. There are exceptional cases too, in which people need only look at each other and know what they feel. Maybe you don’t understand her that well, or perhaps you’ve been trying too hard to understand and missed things. Don’t overthink it. And don’t feel sad over what can still be changed, because people are not ‘written in stone’, they change, they evolve. What i’m saying is, be hopeful, trust yourself and be honest. It’s just advice, you shouldn’t take it very seriously, good luck!
Thanks lowlight, but she is me. I was talking about the way I see myself and want to feel about myself. But part of me doesn’t feel the same. Not sure if it makes sense at all to others..
It makes perfect sense, though i must admit i don’t have a solution. I find myself in conflict with different parts of me everyday, there is more to it but in a few words, i get it.
Made sense to me. Very clever way to describe what it’s like trying to be kind to yourself.