I haven’t been sleeping well, or eating well.
This is normal for me now, but it’s affecting my grades.
But why should I care? My future doesn’t matter to me anymore.
My mom and dad always pressure me to study, to work hard, get good grades.
Numbers define me.
90%, 80%.
But what happens the day I fail?
Will you turn on me?
Why haven’t you bothered to ask what’s wrong?
I’m drowning.
Why won’t you swim out, in the sea of pressure, lies, everything-
Why won’t you come and at least try, try to save me?
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I wish I could help you, but I’m in the same position as you are. I guess it’s kind of nice to know that none of us are alone in this shitty suffering and stuff, and I don’t really know if that’s a comfort or a wicked bummer, but either way, that’s the way it is.
I’m sure that you’re a really cool person, which probably doesn’t mean anything coming from some random asshole from the internet, but there it is nonetheless. Keep on choogling, my friend.
I would give you advice, but no one really comes on this site for advice; they come on here to hear something that can make them less suicidal. I hope you don’t kill yourself. It doesn’t mean anything to you, I’m sure, but if you can stay alive, it will give me inspiration to stay alive, too. Hopefully we can both not kill ourselves.
Thanks anyway. I try to live on.