What’s the point living if you cannot achieve anything you have been wanting to do forever?
i have been failing my whole life and i have never been able to achieve anything, i’m always at best mediocre cant never feel like i have accomplished anything.
i got sick of the feeling i have been feeling for 10 years now, and talked with psychologist and i got told that after my birth i had blood clot in my main blood vessel that comes straight from heart to brain and my brain didnt get nearly any blood before that surgery, and that has made my life this way. a failure.
i can never be anything, and now that i know why and that i never could become anything but mediocre at best, has made me even more numb and suicidal.
there is no hope for people like me who has had such things happen without them having no way stopping it… have started cutting my arm to feel something…
i’m at loss.. or more precise i have always been i cannot become anything..
why should i live . . .
why should i fight . . .
if i cannot become anything that would make me feel accomplished.
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I truly relate to your post. I have been in the same predicament for a long long time. Most people have things pretty good in life. They can have goals and inch their way towards their goals and then when they achieve things they can be happy about those goals and then set new goals and keep on going with little victory after victory in life. Me I have had many years of my life where most of the things I really wanted to do were so far out of reach that there was not much hope to ever get any of them done. On top of that I had all kinds of suffering to deal with. SO YES the thought has to come to mind. What is the point of my fucked up existence??
What is the point in going on in life if you cant really have anything you really want and in its place just have to suffer through tremendous amount of bullshit that you just cant take it anymore?
Oh, I wanted to add this to the post. I am not the most religious person but I have read the Holy Bible and there are some passages in there that ring true. There is a place in Proverbs 13:12 that says: Hope deferred makes the heart sick, but a dream fulfilled is a tree of life.
See it basically says when you have no hope to get your goals and dreams fulfilled then your heart (which is the real you) just becomes Sick > SO this is a testimony of the truth > that when person is in a bad place in life and has no hope to ever really get their dreams fulfilled then that person is just basically fucked in life. See where it says that Fulfilled dreams are like a tree of life. that it like saying the best part of life is be able to get your goals & dreams fulfilled > but if you ever get to a place where that is not possible anymore > then basically your life is fucked and you are screwed
that really is the truth in life.
If a person is not able to achieve things in life that they really want to do then life just becomes a miserable experience and one has to wonder if its even worth it to go on.
I agree with you 100% there Riff Raff, this kind of life is miserable at best.
There is no hope and no way to feel fulfilled for people like us..
im only 20 and i feel like i’m at my end, nothing feels worth doing
and everything i do seems to upset someone and make someone cry…
there is nothing i can do that will make me once more happy…
i have lived so long in false happiness of trying to do something i never could…
im sorry if this is a bit harsh language but i reall mean this.
I
HATE
EVERYTHING.
I’m 20 as well and I am also a failure with no hope, I have had many bad things happen to me, and even though I am also only 20 I feel I have lived a long enough torture of an existence. Nothing feels worth doing anymore, people ask me what I want to be, and all I can answer is, “I want to be dead.”
my thoughts exactly… living is such a torture…
I’m trying to remain hopeful and it’s all a matter of perspective anyway. Don’t compare yourself to what others have. I think realistic goals can be achieved or maybe I should be quiet. I just see a pattern in MY life that shows me that even when I do well, I still fall and it takes me completely out of the game again. I’m sooooo sick of picking up the pieces again. I guess that’s all I can keep doing for now. I hope others don’t give up, but this shit is tiresome and it only gets more tiresome the older you get so I would especially encourage those a decade younger than me on this site to keep going.
as for my life, there has not been “good” times.. whenever i do something i cant do anything better than normal human… even if i try and try to learn one thing.. i cant become more than Sub-par, and it breaks me.. it really does.. tried over-dosing myself with pain-killers and anti-depressants last night and now im still here… nothing happened except my night went on puking everything up.. im tired of being mediocre at everything… i want to be something…