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Myself

The Sound – I Can’t Escape Myself/Hour of Need

by Taf Taf 10/21/2018

written by Taf Taf

Lyrics:

So many feelings
Pent up in here
Left all alone, I’m with
The one I most fear
I’m sick and I’m tired
Of reasoning
Just want to break out
Shake off this skin
–
I can’t escape myself
–
All my problems
Loom larger than life
I can’t swallow
Another slice
Seems like my shadow
Mocks every stride
Can I learn to live with
What’s trapped inside?
–
I can’t escape myself
–
So many feelings
Pent up in here
Left all alone, I’m with
The one I most fear
I’m sick and I’m tired
Of reasoning
Just wanna break out
Shake off this skin
–
I can’t escape myself
I can’t escape […]

10/21/2018 1 comment

The Standells – Paint It Black

by Taf Taf 10/5/2018

written by Taf Taf

Lyrics:

I see a red door and I want it painted black
No colours anymore, I want them to turn black
I see the girls go by dressed in their summer clothes
I have to turn my head until my darkness goes
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I see a line of cars and they’re all painted black
With flowers and my love both never to come back
I see people turn their heads and quickly look away
It’s like a new born baby, it just happens every day
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I look inside myself and see my heart turned black
I see my red door I must paint it black
Maybe then […]

10/5/2018 1 comment

What’s The Point?

by Retsiem 11/17/2016

written by Retsiem

What’s the point living if you cannot achieve anything you have been wanting to do forever?

i have been failing my whole life and i have never been able to achieve anything, i’m always at best mediocre cant never feel like i have accomplished anything.

i got sick of the feeling i have been feeling for 10 years now, and talked with psychologist and i got told that after my birth i had blood clot in my main blood vessel that comes straight from heart to brain and my brain didnt get nearly any blood before that surgery, and that has made my life this way. a […]

11/17/2016 7 comments

Life is not important

by wasd2333 2/13/2016

written by wasd2333

This month, I was a victim of abuse. Twice. No, not “use (something) to bad effect or for a bad purpose; misuse”, it’s “treat with cruelty or violence, especially regularly or repeatedly”. I’ve been abused many times now, but I think this month is the worst.

Abuse story 1:

So, one day I was in class, didn’t finish my work, so I was supposed to stay back for recess, but I didn’t want to. The teacher dragged my collar (I was about 3-5 meters away from the class when this happened) all the way to the classroom door, and threw me. I hit something, so I got […]

2/13/2016 3 comments

Hate

by thehusk 1/15/2016

written by thehusk

I’m so full of poison. I hate everybody. Everything. Myself. Fuck reality for being like this. Fuck me for feeling like this. I just want it to stop. I want to sleep, and wake up in a world that isn’t this one, where I am not this person. Or failing that, I want to burn the whole thing down.

1/15/2016 7 comments

Save me from myself

by YuTasogare 8/24/2015

written by YuTasogare

Well, it’s the third day since I’ve left my dad’s house, yesterday I was very confident that everything would work just fine, now I’m not that sure… I’ve been feeling simply terrible since that, I simply don’t know what to do, which way to follow, I just want want someone to speak with, but who would want to be with me at a time like that? Even I don’t want to, I wish I could simply feel better but I can’t I don’t know for sure what’s wrong, but I’m sure something is just off… so many months and years having my feelings only for […]

8/24/2015 14 comments

Itching

by XxNameGoesHerexX 7/25/2015

written by XxNameGoesHerexX

A Poem Written by Myself.

The Itch

I have this itch.

It lives inside me

and I don’t know

why it stays.

I have this itch.

It burns my skin,

and I don’t know

how it stops.

I have this itch.

It sheds my blood,

and I don’t know

why I’m doing this.

I have this itch.

It’s around my neck,

and I know exactly

how I got here.

~XxNameGoesHerexX

7/25/2015 1 comment

Fathers Day

by dead_angel831 6/10/2015

written by dead_angel831

I wonder how my dad would feel if he knew I wanted to kill Myself so badly. It almost that time of year when girls go out to supper with their dad. I’ll probably stay home and cry but you know… That’s just me…

6/10/2015 2 comments

My Sadness

by MoonShine 5/23/2015

written by MoonShine

My Sadness makes no sense,
So, to you:
It’s unacceptable.
It’s selfish,
It’s not okay.

My Sadness comes from failure:
Failure to satisfy you,
The world,
Myself.
I fear failure and so I fall.

My Sadness hides in shadows
Behind smiles,
Behind bravado,
Behind happiness –
I’m not allowed this Sadness.

My Sadness crushes my windpipe.
I’m drowning,
Sinking,
Dying slowly
Smiling all the while.

My Sadness is forbidden
So I sneak it
In the dark,
Round the corner,
On my own.

My Sadness isn’t a weapon
To use against you,
I hate the Sadness.
Just like you
I’m sorry

5/23/2015 6 comments

Kill Me Before I kill Myself

by CutOnMe 3/25/2015

written by CutOnMe

I find it odd that I’m unhappy with my life and that I feal useless. I have a place to live, a family l, and a girlfriend that I love. Why do I feal like this? I just doesn’t match up maybe its just the pills talking or the razor….not like I would know. I cant take it much longer…. My girlfriend shes messed up like me she has a special friend made of metal and so do I. We got into this argument yesterday about it I pulled out mine a told her if she continues to call herself things that arnt her ill […]

3/25/2015 2 comments

I Can’t do This.

by eab4395 3/23/2015

written by eab4395

My life has slowly come to a stand still. I am stuck, my depression has taken over and I feel like no one loves me anymore. I have had so many people tell me that love is love, but what if there was no love in the first place? I’m tired of falling apart everyday, I am sick of suffering. I don’t want to be here anymore so what is the point. My family tries their best to understand me and relate but it doesn’t work. I have pushed them away and now they are angry. I am not sure why, but I bet it […]

3/23/2015 1 comment

A Ghost of Myself

by aeroghost 7/30/2014

written by aeroghost

So I’ve been fighting with depression through high school and so on, due to relationship troubles (or the lack thereof). But after graduation and freshman year of college was where it nearly killed me. (Twice.)

Winter quarter, I met the love of my life. Everything about her was perfect, except for her abusive family. She would cry in my arms each night, telling me horror stories of her childhood and adulthood. Months passed, and we helped each other through the days. Around Valentine’s Day, she hadn’t spoken with me for three days, so being the idiot like I was, I thought nothing of it.

Until I got […]

7/30/2014 3 comments

Today is my day kidz

by DrunkEmotion 5/25/2014

written by DrunkEmotion

I have offically liquidated all assets. Erased all memory of my existance. What I leave behind are peoples memories, and a beautiful child. I’m The last of 5, I was ignored. Made my existance and recognition on my time. I seriously lived life to my fullest. It has now collapsed after 18 yrs. For months ive debated how. No one is going with me, seriously, not my style. Ive lived alot and had a lot ive called my own. With no serious plan for the future other than day by day, I realize my error. We choose who we are. I lived in secrets and […]

5/25/2014 4 comments

Will I Ever Find Myself Again?

by Invisible2theWorld 2/9/2014

written by Invisible2theWorld

I miss how I used to be.

I never really liked myself before, but at least I was happy. At least I didn’t feel empty inside. At least I felt like somebody important. I enjoyed hanging out with my friends and family. I even enjoyed having time to myself. I actually cared about how I spent my time. I didn’t dread every second of every day. I actually wanted to inspire and impress people with what I achieved in my life.

But now I just want to do nothing. I could careless about about anything.

I just want to give up….

I just wish my life would end. No […]

2/9/2014 2 comments

First Day of Work Experience, Already Humiliated Myself

by JiminyCrispies 2/3/2014

written by JiminyCrispies

So I started my first day at work experience today. And I can already tick off things I have already done to humiliate myself. Â And yes, I timed each thing and wrote it down in a journal.

9:12am: I started to think they were watching me with all these hidden cameras and shit (I think this all the time, I even think there are hidden cameras in my house so people can spy on me).

9:35am: I had a panic attack because someone asked me where hamster food was.

9:52am: I had another panic attack because someone asked about collar […]

2/3/2014 3 comments

This is me…

by Krys 1/10/2014

written by Krys

1/10/2014 6 comments

I want a friend

by Alyssabeth213 11/18/2013

written by Alyssabeth213

I just want someone who can trust and beaccepted by. I feel like no one cares about me and if I were to die tonight nobody would notice. I hate myself for being so lonely.

11/18/2013 8 comments

Weakness and Negativity

by common35017 8/8/2013

written by common35017

I don’t like being weak. But damnit I must be. I cry every time I’m sad and I can never get past my mistakes. But I can see why. I’m honestly ruining my dad’s life. Me stressing him out is causing him to have seizures. My negativity is sucking the life out of my own father. Whenever I try to change I just end up doing something else wrong. My dad wants my mom to come back home and I’m too selfish to not have an attitude with my mother, for my dad’s sake. I so often contemplate suicide. I honestly think it would make […]

8/8/2013 1 comment

I cant do anything else

by Mia Renee 3/13/2012

written by Mia Renee

ive tried everything people have toldÂ me to do and i am getting no where my mom is still hitting me and she wont stop or minimize the amount and i just dont no wat else to do extept die because 1) if i dont kill myself then she will do it for me.2) i dont want to be alive and 3) i WANT TO DIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i mean im sure someone on here will agree with me ………….right

if u have a idea in wat i should do comment on this post and tell meÂ so i guess i will talk to u guys on my comments.

3/13/2012 8 comments

I have tired!

by gumgirl 2/1/2012

written by gumgirl

I was one of those people that were always like killing yourself is stupid. I realize now that was because I had it pretty close to I prefect life. But I worked hard to do that too. I had all As and great friend. And I was so pretty. In my freshman year of high my mom told me we were moving. I didn’t want too. But would any teenager want to move 1,000 miles away from their life, friends, everything. I throw I fit but I knew I was making it harder on myself so I told her I would be good and go. […]

2/1/2012 7 comments