I’m pretty sure I’m ready to give up. I’m always tired, and I idiotically blurted out to my dad that I was always stressed out and now he keeps trying to make me tell him. Obviously, I refuse. My friend is trying to encourage me, and MB – you’re wonderful but I can’t be the BP you met in third grade. I’m getting nowhere in life, still getting bullied, still bisexual, though I don’t mind that as much anymore, and still pretty much worthless. I don’t know what to do honestly, I’m ready to give up. Honestly – I’d love to kill myself. I have a plan for it. I know where my supplies are. I’m just too much of a coward to do it.
-BHP
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I’m sorry,
but if you are “only” 12 there is no reason for you to give up in any way
there is no possible way you can have tried or done everything to see things get better,
time and effort
12 is much to young to give up, so much to see, learn, experience and try,
hell shit might not even actually get better, but the definite possibility of things getting better are absolutely there
things are rarely as bad as they might appear, they might even be able to get worse, but definitely also better
there is a whole world out there, you should experience some of it
you don’t really owe it to the people around you, but you most certainly owe it to yourself to give you the chance for something better
*sobbing* Thank you so much you literally gave me some purpose. *sobs more* Excuse me I need a crying session (of happiness).
I think 12 is about when things started for me depression wise. Life is full of wonderful things and horrible things …always…no getting by all of it. Even as an adult, life can be very hard but the good things that do come along can be really GREAT things and you don’t want to miss out on those…trust me! Stick around and you will see what I mean. Your dad sounds like he cares and is concerned about you…not a bad thing…give him a chance. It might be the best thing you ever do.