I’ve literally processed every issue in my life in the past 20 hours. Forgiven my ex, forgiven myself, worked through all my mental blocks and self enslaving beliefs. Connected with my dad, told him how i’m feeling (literally, he came home when I texted him I told him everything. It made our relationship closer than ever before) I Realized I don’t want to die, saw myself dead in a grave with every single person who cares about me feeling the pain and sorrow of it. Saying if only we could have helped him. Swore to myself I would take actions to change everything that keeps me sick in my life. When the hell does this end though? It’s been like 20 straight hours. It has also been unbelievably scary, and painful. I have no idea why I am completely clear headed right now, in the middle of a trip. I am so grateful, I just took the test dose. Even the dose I took has changed everything. I can tell my outlook on life, my hatred and sickness has been forever weakened and shattered. I only took 1 gram of ta. Dear god, I can’t even imagine a full blown flood.
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I had never heard of Ibogaine, so I googled it just now. Cool. I’ll have to look into it more. Thanks for sharing this. Cool.
Wow. I wish I had something lucid to contribute. I am happy for you.
After reading so much of your pain and suffering Wolf when I was a more of a lurker this makes me really happy to hear. Happy to hear you not only want the change but are physically taking the steps necessary and already are reaping the benefits…it’s very inspiring and gives a lot of hope. Best of luck and I hope you keep us posted how you are doing…some of us do like hearing success stories as it can be contagious and help others see the light through their darkness. So many of us want and need that. Good luck! 🙂