I’m mourning the weekend. The two blissful days that I can not worry. The two days I only see family, but they all love me. The two days I can pretend I’m not being bullied, that I’m straight and perfect, even though they will probably all accept my bisexuality. I’m so open here. So able to just push through and let all my feelings out. I feel accepted here. More accepted than anywhere else. So this is not just a post to mourn the weekend. This is also a post to say thank you to all of you for just taking the time to read this, to become part of my struggle, even though I didn’t ask. I just read one of the replies on one of my posts and it caused me to tear up. It was the first one on my post “Advice please/Rant” and I’m sorry, but I can’t remember your name. Thank you for whoever reads this.
-BHP
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There is always someone here sharing your struggle
even if you post something and it doesn’t get a comment, someone, several, always reads it, feels it, and possibly even relates
might be they just don’t know what to say, wouldn’t know where to begin, or know that what they could say wouldn’t be “right”, so they respect it and keep quiet instead of blabbering (sometimes)
but take comfort in no matter what, the post always gets read
and sometimes, some of the people here, can give advice, support, anything that can help, because they care. they don’t even necessarily have to relate, but a lot of the people here have such compassion for others, even if they don’t comment or give advice or even helpful advice.
people here care, because we all share something, some type of pain, despair, sadness, wants, and desires.
some of us might dislike or even hate ourselves, and want nothing more but to give up, but a bunch of them despite it cares about others, and would like all the others to not give up.
“I might hate myself, but I would like it if you loved yourself,”
“I might be sad and want to give up and die, but I care about you and would like you to not give up find happiness and live”
selfish paradoxical conundrum maybe, but that’s how it sometimes seem to be on SP at times
read enough on SP, and once in a while you can find some little gold nugget of wisdom that might help you through things, or at least just through the day, and then for the next day, there will still be someone here on SP to share with, whenever you need
OMG all of you guys are as bad as my friend – stop making me cry!!! *sobs tears of happiness* :’ )