So I took the test dose of ibogaine an hour ago. It wasn’t anywhere near the flood dose, but just a dose to test things to make sure i’m not going to have a bad reaction. After taking it lying down I started to have really weird thoughts come into my head. Songs lyrics I have heard. Mostly eminem for some reason. I started having thoughts about my ex, remembering specific things that I didn’t realize before. She didn’t mean to hurt me when she broke up with me, she just wanted space, she still loved me but wanted to focus on herself. Then thoughts like fuck I never realized that’s what she meant. Is it too late? Then I drifted into a deep meditation sleep, but only for an hour. Just woke up 5 minutes ago and realize I feel completely clear headed. What a weird experience.
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Oh fuck, now it’s kicking in.
I need to get some of that. To kick my dope addiction. Fuck.
Dude i’m still fucking tripping! 20 hours later. This experience has been literally one of the most eye opening, and most terrifying experiences of my entire life. I keep having thoughts like “what if I never come down?”
I can honestly say if you need this experience to save your life, it’s worth doing. But the coming up period is absolutely insanity.