When you already feel like shit

…and try to get comfort from a “friend” and that person makes you feel even worse.  When you know that you have no real friends and nobody cares enough to help.  When you are crying and reaching out for help and people see it, and yet they walk away.

Funny how people are always so fucking shocked when someone commits suicide.

“Oh I never knew his/her depression was THAT bad.”
“Oh I knew s/he was suicidal, but I never thought s/he would do it.
“Oh I’m shocked.”
“Oh I’m so surprised. I had NO idea.”

Yes, you do, you fuckers.  We come to you.  We try to talk to you.  But YOU won’t listen.  YOU refuse to hear our pain.  You refuse to acknowledge our suffering.  YOU ignore us.  You only want to hear about sunshine and rainbows.  And only willing to talk to us as long as we talk about happy shit.

And this shit also comes from OTHER depressed people too, as if the “normal” people who bash us weren’t enough.

Fuck this world.  I would eliminate myself from this shitty world if I knew of a quick and painless way to do it.  I can’t even succeed in killing myself.  Great.   Just. Fucking. Great.