January 8th, 2017by thislifewasnotmeant4me
I Insisted on slowing my racing mind..
My addiction at first was my saviour..
Now it’s become a loathed enemy..
I never wanted to become reliant on a drug..
I wanted to like me – I wanted to feel normality..
I didn’t want to know me when I was straight..
When I was straight I always needed reassurance from myself that the thoughts I were thinking or emotions I were feeling were those of a fulfilled human being who was never ever insecure or unhappy or paranoid or anxious or unsettled or unstable – or anything like me..