Ughhhh I wanna give up

Today is not my day….I just wanna say f*ck everything and just kill myself right now my whole life has been nothing but a joke that’s full of pain tears and blood. I tried overdosing didn’t work, hanging myself didn’t work, and stabbing myself nothing worked, i’m just so tired of everything like the pain, the bullying, my depression, and everything else I need serious help I took over 10 suicidal tests today and my scores came back very high and i’m just to the point where I don’t care about life anymore I already made my obituary in my 4th period class and my 5 letters that I will leave so people can figure out why I did what I did. Until it’s time for me to do whatever I do to die ima just keep faking a smile and keep trying to hang in there…………..Wish me luck..