It’s 2017 a new year… I ,in my head, had all these plans for change. I wanted to get out there, find a new job, get some new hobbies, change my thought processes, stop being lazy, stop sleeping all day, start taking better care physically and mentally of myself…
I know what I want to do, what I need to do but can’t seem to get motivated enough to put it all into action. I am usually so good at pulling myself out of these type moods, but I can’t seem to do it this time. I am finding it so hard to snap out of it and it’s getting annoying. I am in no position to be like this right now…NONE. If I don’t do anything about it, things will get so much worse and I know this so what is my problem?…I am getting on my own nerves. How do I get motivated to make the big changes I need to when just washing dishes or showering seems like the biggest chore? I just feel so screwed up right now and am tired of feeling this way. I hate being naturally unambitious and envy people with the go-getter personality who make things happen…I wish I was like that instead of being stuck in dibilitating depression…I just can’t seem to snap out of it and it’s been going on so long now. I miss my old life where the blues would come and go but rarely stay long. God please help me snap out of this before it’s too late and I lose everything!