How things went with my confession

Happy post-valentine’s day! So, yesterday I told the love of my life how I felt about her.

I sent her a message I had already written for several months, but at last minute I changed some little things here and there. I guess you’re never fully ready.

My plan? I call it the Schrödinger’s confession. I would send her the message and quickly turn off the wifi so she couldn’t reply. Delete the application from my pc and phone, log off from all I could use to contact her and never look back. And everything went just as planned. Of course there’s this small possibility I turned the wifi off so quickly the message was not sent but whatev.

The thing is: there is an answer, there must be! But I don’t know what it is and I can’t possibly predict it. So it’s a yes and a no at the same time, and none of them as well. And I’m so happy I finally was able to tell her how beautiful she is in every sense. That none of that “nobody loves me” crap is true, and she can be loved.

But sometimes I find myself wondering what the real answer is. Sometimes I want to log in, but quickly decide against it. I can’t even imagine it! I can imagine(predict) a lot of things but this thing is just blurred out. How interesting.

Not gonna lie, I felt so so nervous I was having a hard time trying to hit ‘send’. But it’s done, and I’ll never know the outcome of this, I think it’s better this way.

I love her so much, she means the world to me, but I had to let her go. I hope she finds all the happiness this world can offer. Oh man, I’m crying a little. Again, I guess you’re never fully ready.