It’s been almost a year since I’ve had a full night of sleep… but the past two weeks have been even worse. Night after night after night of just nightmares and no matter what I do they won’t stop…. Granted I’ve always had nightmare/night terrors as a child, I just assumed they’d go away.
The sleepless nights are driving me crazy or should I say crazier than normal. Between the non sleep, relationship issues and the depression/anxiety and thoughts of death I feel like I’m going off the deep end. I feel like I’m losing a battle no matter what I do and have no one to turn to that would understand my feelings or thoughts.
Im so irritated with people just telling me get over it, don’t think that way or wanting me to try and explain my thoughts. Why can’t they understand that I don’t know how to describe it all that I don’t know why I’m feeling like this and how much those questions just piss me off and make it feel worse.
Just needed to vent to those that would understand the dark place I’m hiding in at this moment.
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Having sleep disturbed, that has to be horrible. I hate nightmares I have once in awhile, but every night, again horrible. People that just say just get over it are as ridiculous as any one who would tell a person with a deep cut “stop bleeding” like you could just will that right into happening.
Besides, if you knew what was wrong, you would have fixed it long ago right? Sorry you hurt. I do too.
Thanks for the reply. Wish more people understood especially those in my life. At this point in life I don’t think I’ve ever felt so alone or alienated.