Long time no see

I’m not sure where to start. It’s been quite a long time since I even thought about clicking into this site, so long that I forgot all the information for my last account. Yet here I am. I’ve gotten so comfortable with things being okay, but it has all crashed down on me. The person that I loved more than anything left me three months ago, but I don’t blame him. My depression was getting worse again and I’m not sure he was ever prepared to handle that. But it still hurts to linger on, especially since he has become such a different person. When I first met him, he was sweet and caring to everyone he knew. Now, he has turned cold and goes through girls very quickly and it’s painful to see him become someone I know he would have detested, but then again I am no better. Since the breakup, my depression has reached an all time low and I was recently diagnosed with a panic disorder on top of it. I’m not sure where to turn to anymore. I feel like a nuisance to everyone I try to console in and I just don’t feel happy with my life. So I guess that is why I came here. I don’t expect anyone to care about what I have to say or my life in general, but I just need somewhere to say the things I could never really say to anyone I know.