So I had it all planned….the time place and method…..and the day before I felt better….and on the actual day I felt great….so I didn’t do it….
And now today I feel awful…I have to wait for another opertunity and I’m so annoyed that I didn’t just do it.
I guess a part of me hoped that it was a turning point and things were getting better…no such luck.
2 weeks and counting…..
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Personally I don’t want to get better, I just want the exit. I honestly can’t remember what feeling great feels like, I feel like shit all the time now..
Well I honestly thought that maybe the universe was finally giving me a break and this was my time to start recovering…..after feeling like shit for so long. I think the universe gave me false hope just to stop me from doing it….knowing I would have to put it off again.
I actually feel like the universe was plotting against me. Furious.
I’m glad you didn’t, because just like you felt happiness on that day… You can feel it again in the near future.