I don’t have anything else to say, really. I don’t know why I should live. I hate being here, with my family, with these people. They will never love me, all because of who I fell in love with. They are disgusted by me, the very thought of what I am disgusts them. So honestly, with everything fucked up and going to shit, why am I still here? We all die, why not now? Why can’t I choose?
I don’t really want to grow up anymore. I’m losing everything so quickly, and I will never get it back. Even though I am scared to die, I think I’m scared to live more. I just need to stop feeling. This feeling is what is tormenting me, and I need it to stop. These people that hurt me, I need them to all go away. I can’t do it.
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What do you mean by who you fell inlove with? Are you with someone they don’t like?
We don’t really grow up on the inside. our outside appearance just changes. People leave sometimes, but we also meet many more in the future. Think about maybe all the ones you have yet to meet. .
I know none of that probably helps.
I don’t actually want to die. i dont think anyone of us do. I just want things to be different. Life to be better. And when it doesn’t seem like that can ever happen, i feel suicidal.
What people hurt you? What do you mean by that? is it them hurting you thats made you want to die?
“I don’t actually want to die. i dont think anyone of us do. I just want things to be different. Life to be better. And when it doesn’t seem like that can ever happen, i feel suicidal.”
Very well said. That is exactly how I feel. I want to die because it feels like nothing will ever get better.