I really need someone to talk to about this and I have no one in my life I can do that with , without being judged.
So here goes nothing. I started feeling suicdal about three years ago when my gf of six years left me. I was devastated that someone so close to me could abandon me, someone I thought was apart of me permanently could find herself not needing me anymore. I struggled with the break up even up till now I’ve like tried to win her back even when there was nothin but rejection and pain in front of me. And with all this pain and let down it changed how I felt on living. I jus want to exit this world becuz I’ve decided there something deeply wrong with me. I’ve met this great girl and she’s so sweet to me but yet I can’t stop thinking about her it still hurts.for this I doubt I can live life correctly. With distrust and pain and regret and doubt. How could anyone? Does anyone have any advise ? Am I the only one?
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deathispeacem i have to go to work shortly but tomorrow morning i need to post to you man because there is nothing wrong with you…please don’t think this, man, its natural you feel this way because you’re a big hearted, caring and sensitive guy. Theres nothing wrong with you, these are qualities and your ex isnt for you because she cannot see this. The girl for you is RIGHT UNDER YOUR NOSE, bro !!!
Speak tomorrow.
Sorry to hear about that with your gf. I just had my wife of 27 years tell me she is leaving me, has met someone else and the reason, I have a chronic illness &pain so have lost everything. She is now the main paycheck while I live off disability. I can relate. I had been in a place over thepast 4 weeks where death became a happy place, a place away from the emotional nd physical pain…BUT, for some reason, I got on a new medication, pulled myself up and started talkingto her again. I am going to go out on a limb here but it sounds like you are kind of like me, self esteem issues. You feel like you’ll never replace her becaus your brain is remembering the good times. You focus on her and not you. Losing someone you love is the hardest pain there is in my opinion and i only think that bcause I am going thru it now…trying to hang on andsave what we have. I am assuming you are younger than I, 49 and Iknowit’s easy to say for others BUT it does get better. Try to think, why didn’t it work. Is there something you could have done different to make her stay? Key words, make her stay. In love, you don’t try to make someone stay, they want to stay. You should try to self evaluate your time withher, let yourself go out socially with someone new, nota date but as friends if its easier.Let them show you how it should be. I have a feeling, you let someone else in to your heart, this old gf will be begging to come back once she realizes what she lost. The best revenge is not killing yourself but succeeding and learning from yourmistkes. Let another show you what happiness and love can really be and if God willing, you’ll find that soulmae to speand the rest of your life with. Good luck and don’t give up.
You are not different. This page is full of us. Go for what you have now and forget about yesterday. For some of us here, there is no tomorrow
It’s not as simple as jus go for it . My heart pull me in another direction even if I know wats down that road. I feel so strongly that it hurts to watch this unfold it’s unfair for my heart to be stuck in a state of love nd hurt nd for me to constantly find distraction that don’t last long nd find motivation to find a way.
deathispeace I’m in the exact same situation as you..it does make life not worth living anymore.as for me I’m only here for two more weeks..it hurts soo much that I can’t take it anymore.. I’m still here because I’m fighting my demons to make it until the day I see her again which is two weeks after that then I’d be gone