I’ve planned and done my research….I’ve backed out once and don’t intend to again. But what if, even with all my planning and calculations, I wake up?
I can’t imagine how destroyed I will be if I wake up in a pool of my own sick or worse in a hospital. How degrading.
Why can’t death be easy? An off switch would be great right now.
Has anyone failed their attempts and woken up the next day?
How did it feel? We’re you annoyed that it hadn’t worked or grateful that someone up there didn’t think it was your time to go?
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For me, after failing at a serious attempt, I felt…terrible. It was a feeling of hopelessness, like I was stuck in a life I could never change. Death starts feeling unattainable. And after you try enough times you start feeling like Death is equivalent to Heaven, or “True Love”, or some lofty ideal. Like it’s just an unattainable concept, and not real.
That’s what I don’t want…I don’t want it to be an attempt. I will be mortified if it fails.
If I did fail I knew my life would suck so much more than it does now. I could not bear the thought of that.
I wish there was just some off switch or at least some way we could just kill ourselves if we didn’t wish to live anymore. It’s funny people a lot of the time are scared of dieing, they watch movies like final destination and they think that’s how easy it is to die. They have no idea how difficult it is to die.
What are you planning on taking?
Im foing it in a tub for that very reason. Drowning
If you going to overdose you are most likely going to wake up
I would be super disappointed if i woke after an attempt. And id probably feel shocked and more depressed than ever. Asking myself…what did i do wrong? Did i miss a step? Was the stuff not lethal enough? Should i try something else next time? Bewildering