I went to another class and I tried really hard. I even humiliated myself by asking the teacher to do it with just me and I tried but I just can’t keep anything straight in my head. I think everyone thought I was a loser and I looked so gross in the mirror I couldn’t look. I felt really humiliated and stupid in class although the teacher was nice and then I cried after I left. I did watch the TED talk so I promise I won’t give up but ugh…i literally can’t think of anything I hate more than myself! I suck at everything I do or try!
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It’s good to hear that you won’t give up. You’ve only went to a couple of classes. You can’t expect to get good at it so quickly, it’ll take time. And I assure you, no one did, or should, think you’re a loser or that you humiliated yourself. Almost all of them were where you are now when they first began, and it takes guts to ask the teacher for help. And like you said, the teacher is nice. Just keep at it, and she’ll get you there.
I appreciate you saying that. I’m just frustrated because I’m sick of not fitting in with ANYBODY (including my family) and I’m sick of myself. I hate feeling a failure and I just feel like nobody will or could ever like me or love me ever. Sorry for whining again 🙂
No need to apologize. I wouldn’t call it whining, you’re just venting. I think a lot of people, especially on here, can relate to that. You aren’t a failure, just by the fact that you’re trying shows that you’re not. “A failure” wouldn’t join a dance class and stick with it like you’ve done. Someone will come along. For the time being, try to accept yourself and even love yourself. We all have our good and bad parts, try to focus on those good parts, and work on the bad parts.