Ok this is my first and probably last time i will do this
Ok all i want to say is that i dont deserve to be alive all i do is make other people upset hurt or just angry.
I have tried counselling and talking to friends but none of that seems to help me to stop wanting to kill myself
I dont know if i will ever read comments on this but there is one thing i do know.
Im not afraid to die
After all i deserve it
Life is hard Yea i get that
But getting adopted and then put back into the foster system like some peice of trash is worse
To me anyway
Well, i dont know how long i can trick myself into thinking it will be ok
So goodbye is all i can say
2 comments
Think about it this way: everything you love and fear WILL happen. Within your lifetime (and perhaps afterlife if you believe in that sort of thing) there’s a very good chance for all of it. If you don’t fear death what is there to fear? You can end it, sure. Missed opportunities, a wasted life, and another statistic. Or you can use this pain to push you into finding a better life. At least then when the inevitable comes, there will be people around you who can admire that you died with no fear. Your choice.
I can not imagine how much that hurts…finding a home, becoming attached, then having it all ripped away. Kids sometimes get told that a lot – it’s all their fault. In reality, like any conflict, both people have to look in the mirror and see how they could have changed their behavior.
All I can do is give you a big-ass hug and hope you’re still here.
Try to hang in there.