This guy axxy posted something pretty interesting and I think it speaks to the core of this website and the ppl here. We all want to exit but we don’t have wat it takes to commit but the pain of going on is overwhelming so it’s fucked up, cuz wat do yu do ? Wat do we do?? We come here and vent until venting isn’t enough either, for some ppl they can choose to change things around for a lot of other ppl they can’t .. Becuz of wat ever reason be it physically or mentally. I can’t . But it’s not like I have physical defects I feel ashamed sometimes becuz they are ppl with serious issues and here I am, broken becuz my ex moved on… But for me it’s more then that it’s having the person I loved more then anything leaving me alone in this fucked up world , Ned I did it to myself, so in some way I’m acknowledging I’m broken enough I want to stop but axxy is right, no one can actually stop yu from commiting becuz yu can do it like how yu breathe air wen ever yu want how ever yu choose but u won’t becuz ur here , right reading this ? Nd if ur not going to actually do then the only thing left to do is look inside urself nd figure it out ? And if yu can’t then ur like me and were jus waiting , praying, hoping, for peace in death
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Wow thanks for mentioning my post! Ain’t it the truth though. We want to die so bad, but it’s not that easy. After a while you realize you’re stuck here. And the pain won’t go away.
I know what you mean about having the 1 person you love abandon you. Especially when you blame yourself, man that just feeds the pain. I watched helpless as my soulmate-relationship fell apart because of my depression, and when she later got married it was like a knife stuck in me thats still stuck. But get this, I got over it and you want to know how? I found bigger problems lol.
I knew a guy who said if you stub your toe, then punch yourself in the face and you’ll forget about your toe. Maybe that’s the whole idea behind self harm. Anyway I just wanted to offer that bit of “hope”. After a while the pain turns into a big sea, and you forget why you were depressed to begin with. That’s when (I hope) it means you’re ready to recover. No idea, but I’m trying. Sorry about rambling. I just wanted to say it’s ok to feel like shit. Anyone who tells you that you’ll magically snap out of this, they have no idea. Good luck to you man.
“I knew a guy who said if you stub your toe, then punch yourself in the face and you’ll forget about your toe. Maybe that’s the whole idea behind self harm.”
Wow, I never thought of that way before. I don’t cut but that explanation makes sense.
Good luck to yu man with ur choice to live better
Good luck to you with ur choice to live better
Deathispeace, I think you got it right. Most of us here hurt enough to die, or at least we did at one time. But then that survival thing, or hope, or “hope”, or something else keeps us from shuffling off this mortal coil.
I keep lurking here every day and comment once in a while. Also I see a therapist weekly and she is a huge help. But yes I still hurt often and deeply…