I work at Dairy Queen. It sucks. I want to die. I don’t even need a job. Why did I even get a job in the first place. Like seriously this job makes me want to kill myself I need to quit. I also have some fucking mental disorder and I literally can’t handle shit. Im literally the shittiest fucking person there is. Im 17, don’t have a license let alone a permit. Not to mention Im an actual fuck boy and I hate myself for that. I let people control my actions and its fucking disgusting. Everyone thinks that I have it so easy at school and at home. All they see is a pretty boy douche bag who is full of himself but really Im not. Im the complete opposite. I hate myself. No ones gonna fucking read this.
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If you don’t actually need the job then quit and look into getting therapy for your disorder. However do keep in mind if you don’t get money from parents then the job helps you pay for living expenses, going out to the movies with friends and being able to afford your own car, which is a huge convenience.
As for allowing people to use you for sex, remember that’s in your control-you can choose not to let anyone take advantage of you. Seems you need to take a break from work and relationships and spend some time alone or with people who care about you till you feel stronger and more self-assured.
Lastly people do read posts hear even if no one replies, sometimes they just feel they have nothing to say. But keep in mind you’re not alone, many people are in similar situations, good luck in yours.
I read it!
If you have the option of having not to work, but you took a job at (*shudder*) DQ, then you are a good man. You are seeing, up close and personal, what 80% of all people have to do to make a living. You are strengthening your empathy muscles – always a good thing.
Not being able to handle shit may be a mental health issue but it can also just be a function of being young. Most coping mechanisms we learn are a product of being dropped in the shit and figuring out how to get out of it.
You are neither wonderful nor useless at this age. Judging yourself at this point is a bit premature.
You’ll get your license when you want it badly enough. For me, that was 18. The same for my son.
If you don’t want to be a fuckboy then stop. There are other options. You may not see them right now, but they are out there.
Be yourself, but also work at being kind, patient, and understanding. If you can do all that then you definitely are not a douche. If people still say you are a douche then they are probably assholes with their own issues. Fuck’em.
Keep the damn job and do it with a good attitude until they fire you and save the damn money until you really need it for something. You’re gonna need a house one day because you don’t want to live with your parents or in one of your trashy friends houses on a couch.
Also you could buy a car but keep in mind you can’t really live in a car. I’m 23, Dairy Queen won’t even hire me. I live with my parents, it’s terrible. Every day is terrible.
Why would they not hire you?
Someone better than me in their eyes shows up and I’m basically invisible
Maybe find something that matters to you and dedicate yourself to that. Might tide you over while you’re doing things that make you miserable.
Also, if you’re good-looking, become a model. Easy money.
Everyone needs a job. I worked for a paycheck since I was 12 years old. You can’t expect your parents to pay your way through life. Plus, don’t you want independence when you’re an adult (when you turn 18 and up)?
If you dislike this one, make sure you’ve worked until your probation period has ended (usually 90 days), then find a new job. The s.k.i.l.l.s. (banned word) you’ve gained here will allow you to be selected by other employers.
I’m sorry
You should quit, and work on you mental health. You don’t want to be pushed over the edge one day and then do something regrettable.
I’m 16, and I don’t have a permit or license neither, I feel so behind, but next year I’m going to work to get them. It’s never too late.
I went through a period a couple months ago where I would have sex with guys just because it made me feel better. They just wanted me for superficial reasons, it wasn’t real love though.
People always comment on how positive I am, but they don’t see inside my mind where it can get soo dark sometimes.
I’ve drifted away from Everyone in my life.