I feel like I am losing it. I feel myself slipping and I am so scared I’m going to lose my shit. I don’t want to be who I used to be. I don’t want to cut, I don’t want to try and kill myself. I like being in the real world and not locked up in one place after another. I like the freedom. But I feel like I am going to do something I will regret.. God, what the fuck is wrong with me. Why can’t I be normal and feel normal and think normal. I just want to be safe.. I barely sleep, or eat. And when I am awake, I feel really panicky, I feel like someone is sitting on my chest. I’m trying so hard to be strong… but I don’t think I can do it anymore..